Today I have come here to say goodbye.
Not because I am going anywhere, but because I am truly arriving.
It has seemingly been an incredible journey, but now the journey truly begins.
Throughout various energetically explosive experiences in the last 6 months I have approached the core essence of myself and am now in what appears to be a core dissolving phase.
No longer does my self-control need to have the reins, because the whittling away of all shame down to the core innocence has deftly arrived in the crosshairs of my conscious awareness.
The parts of me that want to say goodbye are the parts that want to be seen, simply because they do not believe they can survive in any other way. This is not true, and I am no longer holding up this charade. I do not write this to be seen, but rather to see.
The parts of me that want to say goodbye are the parts of me which have been wrapped up in self-pity, arrogance, deception, and greed.
The parts of me which are ready to say goodbye are the aspects which have believed they were keeping me ‘safe’, but in reality have been afraid of true safety in the most backward of ways.
This is not about an arrival or an attainment (as the achievement orientation would like to believe), but rather an unattainment. The most glorious death and failure and going down in flames.
It has come to my full attention that I have been feeding the fear by feeding the fear. It seems obvious when stated as such, but other options do not appear so readily available when perception is fooled by habitual patterns.
The Golden Portal is now open, and it takes a hell of a lot of courage to step inside. Not because it is dangerous, but because the parts that believe it is dangerous must experience the true fires of death.
The opportunity to be witnessed in this is simply an indicator that my soul has been poking through, by developing community all along. As such I have (perhaps unknowingly) etched out the possibility for the end of a personal identity.
Traditionally, this identity death process is very private and not accounted for in any type of public forum. My journey has called me deeply into documenting this process with open precision in the space of trusted community, as a permission slip and demonstration for others.
I am tempted to reference “the path” I am on, but in truth the soul’s primal embodiment is the ONLY path, regardless of whether it is accepted or not. I am well aware that this can come off as arrogance to the skeptical (or the frustrated), and yet for those who are ready to accept this process there is no better gift than the demonstration of personal power.
We are all aware that the world is greatly changing in orientation, and without the integration of the perspectives I have outlined above there is little chance of moving forward without deep suffering. There is time and space NOW to address this, and I give you all of my encouragement to do so. Through me or some other means. Don’t say I didn’t warn you.
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